Tomorrow, Yesterday, Present

 Sing through me.  Strength in weakness.  Be my eyes, my voice, my hope, my freedom.  Help me to surrender all to you.  Holy, holy.  May dawn welcome a new day, twilight rest towards a new tomorrow.  Redemption.  May I sing and dance, with my boy, mind and heart.  May joy be my companion, may I trust you for each tomorrow, each yesterday, each present moment.  Be between, beyond, before.  That one day I will trust in you who surround me, let your healing presence be with me.  A new day, drawn from the storehouses of your love.  Where we came from, where we are going, everything in-between.  Have mercy on me a sinner.

May we see You

 Lord God, save me from myself.  May I rest secure in your arms.  Forgetting all else.  To be at home, and to realize that there is no place where you are not.  The hope of nations, the hope of humans, the hope of those who have come before, are, or will be.  May I look no place else.  May my life start and end with you, and have all the in-between.  Let it be you.   Let me stand upon your rock, course through my veins, let not my heart drink the bitter drink of judgment and bitterness.  Let my mind rejoice in you, you, who have not forgotten me, who is with me.  Be my strength, have my tears, let my sorrow find rest in you grace.  Be my true home, to where I turn.  Teach my mind to surrender to your grace.  Be bigger than my mind can conceive.  Let your loving energy be the skeleton holding me up.  Let me experience your heaven in the present, and then to go home to you.  Let my life be yours.  Sing your song over creation, that all may catch a glimpse, that we all may rejoice at your glory, that we may all see you more and more clearly all the time.  Have mercy on me a sinner.

Am I broken?

 Am I boken, Lord God, have mercy on me.  I don't deserve your grace, yet cover me with it, I have no where else to turn.  Lord God, where am I to go.  Depression knocks on the door, Lord God rescue me.  May I one day wake up in a land where it is you alone.  May my vision fail me so that you are my eyes.  Why do I do the things I do?  Have mercy on me a sinner.  Remove all from me Lord, have my body, my mind, my psyche, my soul.  May I delight in you only.  Forgive my sullen way of viewing the world.  Forgive my doubt and ingratitude.  May the treasures of my heart and mind be you alone, rescue me from depression.  May I rest upon you, and seek no other home.  I don't want to suffer, I don't want depression.  

Lord God, may I one day know you even as you know me now.  May I see you clearly, may I see the world as your creation, may I see you as the master painter brushing your strokes of grace.

That all may Belong

Celebrate.  He has come.  He has always been here.  Drugs nor alcohol could hold him back.  My minds euphoria doesn't compare with the simple beauty of ultimate reality.  Simplicity, maybe if we travel long enough into the in-between we will find the Maker.  Hidden in plain sight.  Between every word and phrase.  Between darkness and my doubt.  Seeking to shine through, to be more than an afterthought.  Maybe that which was behind, between, can make it's way forward, to be center.  To let all revolve around it.  The center, in it's rightful place.  All in all.  That I may not give way to negative voices, may I not hide in shame.  Hold me in your light, that which was in-between may be center.  Sing.  Dance.  Play.  We are invited.  We are called.   We are His.  Alive.  Trusting.  If only through a foggy mirror, if only every fifth thought.  That which is small can grow.  That which is only caught in glimpses can be the sun.  Let the sun shine until I have forgotten everything else with a less captivating glow.  That all may be one, that all may belong.