Light

A light to run away.  What is on the other side?  Light.  What is around the corner?  Light.  What is underneath?  Light.  

The light shines the darkness.  And the darkness cannot overcome it.  

Before my bitterness was light.  Before my plans was light.  Before my shurities was light.  Before my wondering and questions was light.  Before death and dying was light.  

We need not just endure.  We are called to proclaim, to live into, that which is the truest.  Light.  It's the deepest well.  An endless well.  It's where we are born.  It's where everything is headed.  Let us not fight the natural order of things.

For free

It's for free.  What if the greatest gift is one we've already received.  There is no prerequisite for it.  There is no test.  There is no grading system.  Whether or not you deserve it isn't even a question.

Its answer is "yes."  Its answer is "of course."  It shouts, "both/and."

Birthed from the One that had no birth.  Born of the One who was not conceived.

Freedom lives with the One who has given himself over to us.

For free.  I must lay down arms.  I cannot fight for this.  The battle is already won.  I cannot compete for this.  We all win.  I cannot think my way in.  Rather I must unlearn my defenses.  I must surrender to that which was, and is and will be.

Words born from silence.  Silence born from love.  Love born from Trinity.  Trinity in a perfect self emptying and receiving dance.  Setting the tone for the atoms.  Drumming out the beat which calls us all to dance.

So let us dance.

Free Association

Free association.  Not censoring what I say.  Not worrying about if what I said is wrong.  Just saying it because it doesn't need to live inside me.  What I share can also be helped.  So let me sit on the couch, recline and open up.  I fear so deeply what is inside of me.  The brain I have that should be controlled by the Spirit is deeply afraid of itself, and this body that lugs it around.

But this is not what I'm meant for.  Banquet.  Celebration.  Goodness.  Kindness.

So open up insides.  Pour out into the light.  Fear not your own greed.  Fear not your own selfish ambition.  Just let them be swallowed up by light.  Just let yourself be swallowed up by light.

Oh, there you are

Oh, there you are!  In a place I didn't expect.  I went to my schools, I read my books, I planned my plans, but my ego loves to attach its worth to accomplishment, and I became what I do.  But that is not where you are.  Catch me by surprise.  Come to me when I'm on my knees, when my defenses are down.  Then, possibly, I will be more receptive.  I've tried ownership.  Over and over and over.  When I think something is in my grasp, it becomes illusive to me.  Look what I have!  Look what I have discovered.  Pain.  Look at me!  Look at what I've figured out!  Regret.

If it is true that there is a kingdom beyond, between and before our current level of seeing, let me see it.  For to many times I've tried to take captive reality and make it my own.  There must be something larger, something that includes everyone and everything for all of time, space and eternity.  Right?  What other common ground do we have to meet on?  How else can we be one and yet also celebrate our differences?

Awaken my soul.  Let me dull mind, mush and all, see with clarity.  Help me to believe.  Is it too good to be true?  No, let me believe it more and more for this human life and beyond.

Silence

Words born are words born out of silence.  Words born from word loose their flavor.  When our constructs are built from previous constructs, we get further from the center.  In silence, my thoughts may emerge, my fears surface, I may not like myself.  I may desire to flee the silence.  But this is my chance to not run, to process, to feel, to know at a deeper level.

Silence, where the ground of being may be realized a little more, and where in the dry desert of our being flowers can break forth.  And the desert becomes a tropic, with golden shores, waters of blue, and a bright and energizing sun.

We must let our inner selves out.  We must give it breathing room.  It needs oxygen.

Let us integrate ourselves with ourselves, reconcile ourselves to ourselves, and free the self that's in ourselves.

Free Soul

Be free soul, let yourself dream.  Let not capture be your home.  Choose not captivity, let yourself dream.  Lay down arms, they are not your weapons.  Let freedom ring in your soul.  Take down walls, we need each other.  May light shine in your mind and body so that you experience life as good, as the universe rigged in your favor, as the current and waves dancing with you.  Let us not fear our bodies, fear our longings, fear our darkness.  They were meant for the light.  That is their home.  Let us simply walk into the light.  The light takes effect.  Conversion.

Let the children sing and dance without hinderance.  Let me not be a hinderance to their joy.  May we encourage life in each other.  May I not see you as other, but as one with me.  There is a body that engulfs all our bodies, we are seamless.  Alive.  Loved.

In need of mercy

Help me to never forget that I'm in need of your mercy.  Help me to live in your forgiveness.  Reveal to me areas where I need your forgiveness, and help me to give them to you.  Help my pride not get in the way of being in the flow of your mercy and forgiveness.  Have free access to my heart and soul.  Let your agenda be done, your love take root in me.  Help that be the strongest force, and if it asks me to give up a petty pride, a hate, a taking comfort in my own accomplishments or illusions of accomplishments or to rest in my own goodness, help me to give them up to you.

Have mercy on me a sinner.