Tuesday, May 12, 2020

Depths to ground

What happens when pain abides in me?  What happens when my experience of life is suffering, and I don't see a way out?  What if in this time I don't know what to ask God for because I don't know the way out?  Is it ok to cry out to God?  To simply cry out?  Is it ok to tell God that we're angry?  If we do so, it might feel like we're complaining.  It might feel like we're just affirming the anguish that we feel.  We might fear the anger as it comes out.  Maybe we don't like to feel anger in us, or maybe we're scared that if tap into the depths of our unknowing, doubt or fear that there will be no end to it.  Maybe we fear that it will consume us.  However, keeping it at bay and holding it down is the true tax of our energy.  If God is the true ground of being, then speaking our suffering is to resinate our soul to  him, to this ground.  And then, if we stay the course and speak our pain the ground of being will resinate to our grounding and we can feel more centered and heard.  We might get an answer like, do this or that, but we might be touched in our soul and find that in fact, our unknowing didn't swallow us up.  Maybe the feeling is more like, he knew already and is glad that we're not carrying that weight anymore.

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